My Life

Well.. what to say. Life has been a rollercoaster.

I miss the week of Senior Ditch Day, having that 3 chapter test for physics, and having badminton practices from 7-9PM. Just cause during that week or two, when I woke up, I just felt great. I knew it would be a good day. I think I even smiled while walking around for no apparent reason. It was great because I seemed to have a bit of a social life, hanging out with friends from 3-9PM on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and going to SUJU’s (which has been my first and second time) to hang out and study ‘til midnight, .. stuff like that. Vanilla Italian Soda too good. And some Green Tea drink. And I either did well or received a grade better than I thought I would have on Calculus tests. Haha.

For Badminton, I really hated it in the beginning. I kept regretting my last minute decision to change my mind to join - just for the uniform and warm-up. Fooling around with friends and not caring about the games was fine, but my innate nature to be competitive kept kicking in and it made me troubled because I started creating really dangerous, triangle relationships. I could have easily broken so many great friendships during this season, and fortunately, I haven’t. So grateful.

And how come I’m having so many issues with the underclassmen of the team? .. 

But now, at least, badminton has been fun. Still playing around, but I’m happy. My motivation to play has recently increased, and went up even more after the Irvington Tournament. It’s a shame that was my last high school badminton tournament, but I guess I’ll have to deal with it.

Oh. I became friends with Alan Kakanami~ Stringer.

School wise, meh. I’ve been slacking. Just hope I don’t fail. But I’ve been losing and making a lot of close friendships recently, as well. It’s been kind of sad. I used to meet up with around 5 friends every day after school at the 50’s lockers, and somehow we’d waste time until it was at least 3:30 or 4, or even past then. But now, I rarely see some of them. Instead, I’ve begun to hang out with different people, and while I’m still trying to maintain a close relationship, it gets kind of hard when you don’t talk to them, at all. 

And I feel so lame during Calculus when my friends and I just are at the back of the classroom playing Monopoly Deal while everyone else is “studying.” We’ve gotten into trouble several times already, and yet we do this. What losers, haha. It feels rude, and so some days I didn’t even participate, but then I resume playing. Such a hypocrite.

And at church, I’ve just lost a pastor.

And, I’ve been teary-eyed. Almost cried. Haven’t had emotions like this in a long time. While I was watching the end of 2 Days 1 Night. I’ll miss the last last episode, but even that one was heartbreaking. 

I’ve.. not drawn in a long time. Sad thing, right when I just bought so many markers to draw with. 

I’ve been driving a lot. Too. Have had so many close calls. Very thankful to be accident-free.

And within these past two months, I’ve also participated in Senior Cruise. Great time with friends. Even though the cruise itself wasn’t worth the $69.

And. I’ve reached my LoL goal of 1700s and have quit ranked~! It’s been a lot more fun just playing with friends now, instead of playing with strangers. And 1v1s have been cool. But, LoL will be missed, when GW2 officially comes out.

School lunch time has been interesting too - found a new hobby, which is to throw. 

Last but not least, college acceptances. It’s been a big relief to actually be accepted into colleges. And, it’s been really sad when you see friends who have one dream college, and end up not being accepted there. But most of all, for me, it’s been really.. depressing to hear of some people get accepted to some other places that I applied to but got rejected, because those are some people that I like or would really want to maintain/try to have a very close relationship with, and once we separate into our own colleges, it is very unlikely we’ll ever see each other again. 

I have to go~!